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wraithfodder ([personal profile] wraithfodder) wrote2013-01-11 05:03 pm
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R.I.P, Ian


My little Ian is gone :(

He'd been diagnosed with feline CRF (chronic renal failure) earlier this year [ed: sorry, meant 2012], and this past Fall, it began to accelerate. He got really sick, then spent two days in kitty ICU but came home much better. Over the following weeks/months, we did our best to help him but he refused all pills (violently). He finally got accustomed to daily SubQs (subcutaneous injections in the back) but he still dehydrated. Despite eating, he was losing weight. Then he began to unrinate in 'inappropriate' places, i.e., he peed on me while I was sleeping! He had a scheduled vet visit but I took him down a week early. I had the feeling he was in the end stage, and the vet confirmed it and recommended that we let Ian go. He would not make it until tomororw Saturday, but yesterday then inflated him (what we called it, they refilled him with fluids as well as more drugs) so we could have one more night with him. I fed him Stouffer's turkey terrazzini, which he ate part of. It's salty, so not good for him, but it didn't matter right now. We took him back to the vet this morning and because he still had an IV port, he didn't have to endure more injections. The anesthetic to make him sleepy and unaware of the final injection knocked him out in seconds. He'd lost half his weight in one year, so the drugs were potent. The final injection took quickly. We're having him cremated, and his ashes will go next to Rory's ashes, who we had put to sleep a little over two years ago.

I'd like to think I'm cried out, but I know I'm not. I came home and just did wash. He peed over a lot of blankets last night, so I just washed, and put away the kitty litter boxes, because they're too difficult to look at. I expect to hear him, see him on the couch. I know it will be a while before I'm over that.

And to just make it all so much worse, when I drove to the vet last night to pick him for his final night with us, I was waiting to turn when a car rear-ended me. I got out and discovered the SUV that whacked me had been pushed into me by a hybrid that had sped rightt into him (there were no skid marks, so was the guy texting??!). I ran up to the vet, told them what happened and they promised someone would wait until I was able to pick up Ian. Over an hour later, I was able to escape - the car is driveable but the trunk is crunched and now held together with green duct tape). The other two drivers were carted off to the hospital.Nothing life threatening. This the third accident on the road in the last two weeks (first accident had a fatality and the second, a severed limb). A firefighter at the scene told me I got the best end of this accident as the hybrid is totalled, and the SUV has a mushed in rear and cracked up front). I needed that like a hole in the head. I told everybody I had to get to the vet so they accommodated me as best they could). The vet's aide told me this morning they were picking up pieces of the hybrid off their driveway as it spread shards everywhere...

So much for my nice not quite two year old car. Sigh... but still, losing Ian hurt a lot more.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
I'd like to think so, and catching mice :)

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. Aw, red panda. They're adorable.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, the vet asked if we wanted to stay and we said yes. I wasn't letting him die without his family around him. There are times when I think I'd rather be surrounded by cats than people, since the latter can be such idiots at times...

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. Is that your kitty in the icon?

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much. Yes, either on phone or just not paying attention at all. Still don't know.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
I truly hated putting him to sleep, but did it for him, as his quality of life was rapidly declining. I had to let him go. It's so tough, but he's at peace now.

[identity profile] alyssa22.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
I agree 100 percent. Our babies are such wonderful friends.

Losing Kasper was hard. Losing Cookie after 7 years was awful too. Each cat stakes his or her claim on you and they take a piece of you with them.

I swore I'd never get another cat after Kasper. It was just too painful. Then along came Edie and she is just a sweet, joyful girl.

I stayed with both of my boys. I couldn't leave them alone in their final moments. Cookie was so upset to be at the vet that they said they didn't want to do it without me there, and I said there was no way I'd let them. You did the right thing, as painful as it is.

[identity profile] kriadydragon.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
*Hugs. Many, many hugs*
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[personal profile] aelfgyfu_mead 2013-01-12 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
Yep, that's our Sparky! She has cancer and was supposed to have died no later than July, but she's still with us and very active. She was so active today, in fact, that Brilliant Husband had to close her in a bedroom so that he could eat lunch without the cat landing in his lap in pursuit of his sandwich!

We have another cat too, Doofus. I still have to find a good picture of him to make an icon. He's very funny-looking.

[identity profile] piplover.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry, hon, for all of it.

*Hugs*

[identity profile] jaekayelle.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry your Ian has moved on. It's alway very difficult losing pets. They are family. We raise them as our children and they age so quickly or get sick far too easily. Maybe you can take comfort in the fact that he's not hurting and is probably playing with your other furkids somewhere sunny and warm. My Desi has probably already found him and made friends with him.

*hugs*
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[identity profile] seticat.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
I am so sorry. May Momma Bast hold him in her arms and let him rest until he's ready to put on his brand new 'kitten outfit' and start playing again.

That's how my Bali Baby 'told' me it was time and she was ready, even if I wasn't. She 'woke' me up by peeing on me and had this sad look in her eyes. I still cry when I think of it.
Edited 2013-01-12 05:35 (UTC)

[identity profile] monkey5s.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
Oh I am so sorry for your loss. They add so much to our lives but it hurts so much when they go. I'm glad you got a last night with him.

And now I'm gonna have a little cry over all the furbabies I've lost over the years.
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[personal profile] sholio 2013-01-12 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I'm sorry.

[identity profile] ladyniko.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry for your loss. I went through that with Lovecraft and his stomach cancer. He told me he was ready to go when he would no longer allow me to do the sub-cu treatments.

Sorry about the car - that totally sucks. At least, it seems like you won't be out any money to fix it, since the hybrid dude caused the wreck in the first place.

Good luck with it all. I'd offer you a massage, but you're not near me, unfortunately! :)

[identity profile] cannellfan.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Elyse...I'm so sorry. Additional *hugs* from me (and Becky) out here in Nebraska. I'm glad you were able to spend the extra time these past few months with Ian, though I'm sure it was heartbreaking to watch him lose that much weight. It's so hard to lose our furbuddies!

And to top it off with the idiocy on the road. Jeez!

My thoughts are with you!

[identity profile] fu-dragon.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry for your loss. *hugs you*

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, I remember the look in Ian's eyes toward the end... sigh...

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I can understand how for some people, it might be too hard to stay, but I couldn't imagine not being there for my little guys' final moments. Ian was peaceful in his last momnets at the vet, and I'm forever grateful for that.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. Woke up this morning instantly thinking of what to feed the cat... going to be hard to break that habit.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

[identity profile] wraithfodder.livejournal.com 2013-01-12 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much.

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